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making a new lj. [04 Mar 2007|04:13pm]
deleting this one.
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yesterday && today [11 Aug 2006|12:51pm]
[ mood | creative ]

well what happend yesterday wass that i went 2 sleep reallyyyz late 2 nights ago.. ask me y? i have nooo idea y i did but that okk, haha well soo i ws tired the holee dayy but w.e andd then i watched big borther 7 and then went in2 the colddd pool andd then after that we went 2 the libreray 2 cash in the book bucks 4 prizes and i saw andrewww and i was like greatt and then tyler, tyler was in his ft ball jerseyy and i dont think he saw me because if he did yhe would of caused a bigg scene but luckyy 4 me he didnt, haha, thenn we went backing out andd i saw dan outside but again he didnt see me then i went 2 bed once i came homeee hmm anythng else i 4gottt umm hmm i dont think sooo then right now talking 2 my friends:

friend: holy shit
friend: u havnt changed ur profile since yesterday
friend: are you okay?
friend: what happened?
lmao i always chanvge my proo <33



welll love alwyas,
Amanda

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thinking bout the thought [16 Jul 2006|09:06pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

its always on my mind.. it cant escape my thoughts, my dreams, my mind.. its just like a stalker following me and u no whats weird i dont no what it is.... all i know is that its just a thought that thinks its soo tough and thtas it thinks all on its own!! i no it sounds soo weird and i think that always but i dont know what that little thought is... i think bout it but its just a thought, its a thought that has many thoughts that follow, hahaha, i no this sounds fucking retarded but i cant help myself.. its soo hard 2 explan.. hmmmm lets think.. how do i explan it... i cant!! haha... ummm welll i g2g, later, buhbye, ttyl, ttfn, byebye, <333, BYEEE, haha

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rock on baby [14 Jul 2006|08:22pm]
[ mood | recumbent ]

iam in such a great mood.. everythings going my way! everythings working its way up and NOTHINGS going down.. its all positive!!! YESS!!! i put up with all rain now i finnaly get a big rainbow!! YESSS!! iam soo happy right now.. nothing can bring me down right now.. NOTHING.. i mean 7th grades gonna be soo amazingly sickly SICK ( if thats even a word )
hahaha.. well... anyway just letting u no that everything is all great... i just wish that the guy i like is gonna sign online b.c in the mood iam in right now i'll tottaly ask him out, right now, right here!!! thats how happy iam.. i dont know why all of a sudden i am soo happy!!?? i mean my friend ______ is being a bitch but w.e thats not gonna bring me down!! well... i guess theres nothing else 2 say... hmmmm nope nothing!! wow i think this is the shortest entry yet!!..

ROCK ON BABY!!



I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH!!

<333333333333

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The Dream [11 Jul 2006|12:30pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

well last night i had alot on my mind but i never thought i would EVER have a dream like this...

It was A hot july night and we were in this weird hotel and there was a cute guy but somehow we were going out? and he would come 2 my hotel room everynight and we would talk and talk and it was sooo sweet <33.. but i didnt no where his hotel room was ( the hotel was my house!) soo i had 2 go in my basement and i had 2 go in all these rooms but i didnt find him then... we went on this carebear ride 2gether and i bought him a shirt and he bought me a key..? and then what happend wass we hugged and we held hands and i remember thinking that this was reaL.. AND I NEVER WANED to be away from him.... and nethier did he.. then we were walking ( it was like kidnight when we were walking) then i woke up!! i noo i should of kept sleeping but i had 2 wake up 4 chours!! that was such a god dream<33 i wonder what it means?

hmmm

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Fair [02 Jul 2006|10:48am]
[ mood | giggly ]

Well yesterday I wne t to the fair, it was really fun. i went on all these kool rides! I went with christina, anna, marisa, and cat. but we found ppl and hung out with them like giini ( no i dea how 2 spell it) and we went on the merry- go- round with him!

haha
that was fun, but i think he got kicked off the ride b.c he was like well u dont wanna no. So then me and ppl went on the otha rides and u no etc.
oh wait b.4 i 4get i was telling cat about this guy we thought was hott so i sai 2 her ask him 4 the time, but there was this otha guy right beside me that thought i was talking 2 him, haha, it was soo funny, but i felt kinda bad b.c i told him nvm! soo i dont no if he thought wow iam ugly or something

IDK
lol

well i'll c ya ppl later

ttyl

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But its not her fault [01 Jul 2006|12:34pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

My Friend got a disesse and its interfearing her hole enite life infront of her

My friend has ADHD, which stands 4 active disoder , and hyper disoder

her family do not support her in any way

when i was over her house her older brother even dissed her what wasnt her fault. its not her fault she has adhd! She even cried that night thinging iam soo stupid all b.c of this stupid ADHD. I try 2 comfort her by being there 4 her when she "falls" down.Its really upaeting 2 see her like this and she feels like she dosnt belong, shes not human, shas not real

and she tells me that the feeling she gets when some1 makes fun of her bout that she feels well happy
Happy 2 fell shes a little normal b.c normal is getting made fun of. so in her eyes she really hates herself, and her family dont help the problem they make it worse like a scratch that u get when u fall down the stairs from a sibling and no1 helps it but you think you know what ur doing but then months later u relize u just made the scar worse and worse..

i cant even think of whats she going through.. it must be soo hard 2 have ADHD and 2 TRY 2 think ur something good

well the fact is she dosnt think shes GOOD she thinks shes HORRIBLE, DREADFUL and it really makes me upset 2 hear that from her
but she talks like its the truth and iam starting 2 belive that...
She told me when she was younger she went on this diet and she couldnt have " colrs" in food

that only lasted 4 a little bit


She told me once when she was 6 and she went ova a friends house she told the mom y she couldnt have colors and the daughter laughed and then soon relized she was serious

it broke her heart

I STILL CAN THINK OF WHATS SHES GOING THROUGH

it must be soo hard <3

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LIFE [30 Jun 2006|05:21pm]
[ mood | curious ]

well
i went over my friend christinas house

and slept over

we did really CRAZY, FUN, and u no everything else

And we watched this really sweet chick flick

it was bout this girl and she had a cursh on a pop star ( like me and ryan cabrera) and the guy that she liked ( the celb) had 2 go 2 a public skool so he goes 2 her skool

but the guy wasnt 2 smart so he had 2 get the smartest girl in the skool 2 hang out with soo she can teach him and yah.....
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sooo he finds the girl that obseddsed with him and he goes 2 her house, buys her a car, etc

but thats not the point

sooo prom was coming up and there was this chubby guy that asked out this popular girl but the snub said no and laughed butt


towards the end he goes out with this celb!!!

and the celb finds out that he really LOVES her




they didnt get married but every1 had a fairytale ending <3

awww!!!

i wish my life was like that

the movie was called " pop star"

lol

well... watching that just made me think boutm my future


its soo scary thinking bout my future not knowing what it holds


some guys wanna use your heart
i call them the lions

some girls like me is called
a sucker

a sucker is some1 that gives some1 there heart not thinking and they crush it

the lion is the person that eat ur heart and never return it

i call that process the jungle



and that my friends is something u should be scraed of


:(

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I luv you [26 Jun 2006|01:14pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

*JUAN*

my bf is juan
ur prob wondering who he is:

well in 5th grade he was in my class and he sat right next 2 me..
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i fell deeply in like with him....

i thought mayb i was even in LOVE with him...

well it was well i 4got when but i found out horrible news.
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he was gonna move away 2 a hole toha country!!

:(

soo i wanted 2 tell him how much i liked him and admired him on this play

he was in a play with me butrn he was stage vcrew and i was ccast soo ui was gonna tell him on saturday ( it was the last day we were doing the play)

soo i plan this hole speach 2 tell him how i feel..
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i was soo nervous but all i kept thinking bout when i was ion stage that was my last time preforming the play and all i really remember was his face smiling at me with his sweet smile and those eyes, dont get me started

he used 2 steal my hat ( it was part of the costume)
and hed run around with it

awww

but it wasnt annoying like he would hug me and be like aw i feel so bad that i stole ur hat and then would HUG me!!!!

AW
but anyways

we went out 2 eat 2 celabrate my play and just then i remember that i 4got 2 tell him!!
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:(!
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and i was sooo pissed oof at my self!!!
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its been over a year now and still wonder bout him....

i think he liked me 2 but hey, i guess i may neva no


i've been thinking of a plan though....

2 long 2 explan the plan

but if any1 has advice 4 me 2 get over him

plez do



:(

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Todayish [26 Jun 2006|10:05am]
[ mood | blank ]

harleygirl52594: i think ur in love wit a ganngsta from the hood

lol, hahahahaha

shes SO funni

only me and her would get this even though she dosnt read my lj but w.e

sooo 2day i was gonna go 2 the beach but instead iam going 2morrow

any1 care 2 join us? ( leave a comment if do)
lol

soo i dont have much on my mind right now i guess...
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well i do but i dont think i should trust even my journal 2 shut up and not tell a soul



but i g2g

playing solon qith my little sister
she says i need a makeover




lol'
ttyl
ttfn
buhbye

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11:18 in the mornig [25 Jun 2006|11:25am]
[ mood | calm ]

welll last night i didnt go to sleep intill 1:30ish
well thats the time i shut off my T.V

And its got me wopndering Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

its really true and gots me thinking

iam neva gonna be in the 6th grade anymore!!!
!!
thats scary

life is confusing....

i mean u neva know whats coming up the corner...

it could be ANYTHING
I've also relized i would rather a lead singer then a back up singer
and no not littaly
i mean as i like the leader better then a follower..

haha

iam also really happy 4 summer music 2 start b/c all theese ppl are gonna be there

mayb my summer will come.. i doubt it though but w.e

LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES
YOU JUST HAVE 2 FIND THEM YOUR SLELF


IN THE COUSE OF A LIFETIME WHAT DOES IT MATTER

*Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around*

TAKE MY ADVICE AND DONT WORRY BOUT DEATH OR ELSE U'LL END UP LIKE ME

no offence 2 me

lol'

well g2g

laters

lol

buhbye

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Sports Plus [24 Jun 2006|08:51pm]
[ mood | curious ]

well,... at sports plus we...
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went ice skating and went on rides and everything,,,

well 1st we went ice skating and marisa sucked at ice skating so i helped her and we saw a couple cute guys staring at us??

so 1 of them stops RIGHT in front of me and.,..
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just stares at me and smiles and at that same moment i RELIZED that, that was the guy i saw about last year when i was skool shopping
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he gave me that same smile, that cute, funny, outgoing smile!

i knew that smile
i just smiled back and yeah... lol]


so its a small world after all?

welll... then after skating we rode some rides and that was really fun!

hahaha


umm iam running out of time but it was really fun...
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iam just siting here remembering my past!
its just soo sad but happy at the same time


well ttyl
ttfn
later
tata
buhbye
bi

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just baisc life [21 Jun 2006|11:58am]
[ mood | confused ]

well 2 yesterday night....

i was on the computer u no talking 2 my friends...

and going on web sites and i was talking 2 a person from my skool and we were playing the cute game.
the cute game is where u go back and forth saying who u think is hott... so we play and all of a sudden

i get this im from some1 i dont no asking me do u think **** is hott?

so my responce was like who is this?

so i ask them and say just do u no him and i say yeah... and hes like well would u go out with him..

i talk back 2 the otha person i was talking 2 be4 and say do u no who soandso is and she says yeah but she wasnt going 2 tell me

so i start 2 think mayb thats ****!! and then the guy tells me that **** thinks iam soo hott and how much he likes me and hes saying that hes his bffl

so iam like freaking out here then i start 2 wonder if thats **** that i was talking 2!!!!!!

so i dont answer him and i say like ur soo nosy and y do u want 2 no and EVERYTHING

none of it worked he still kept iming me!!!! so now iam like dude can u stop iming me but he neva did and the sad part is...

i still dont no who he is...... so 2day @ skool i kept looking around being really scared... idk y! lol

i need advice though...

me and **** NEVER even talked be4 and his "friend" says that **** gave him my sn

and i dont no if is should belive him or not?



i really need advice!!!!

:( :)

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true love [20 Jun 2006|05:14pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

Derick:
I guess we are the left-overs in this world.

Lily:
I think so...all of my friends have boyfriends, and we are the only the 2 people left in this world without any special person in our lives.

Derick:
Yup, I don't know what to do.

Lily:
I know! We'll play a game.

Derick:
What game?

Lily:
I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days
and you will be my boyfriend.

Derick:
That's a great plan, in fact, I don't have anything to do
much for the following few weeks.

DAY 1:
They watch their first movie
and they both are touched by the romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went go to the beach and have a picnic. Derick and Lily have their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Derick invited Lily to a circus and they ride through a Horror House.
Lily was scared and she thought she touched Derick's hand but she actually touched someone else's hand they both laughed.

DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road, and they asked for their future advice.
The fortune teller said:
"My darlings, please don't waste the time of your life, spend the rest of your time together, happily." Then tears flowed out from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Lily invited Derick to go to the hill
and they saw a meteor; Lily mumbled something.

DAY 28:
They sat on the bus, and because of a bumpy road Lily gave her first kiss to Derick by accident.

DAY 29:
11:37 pm:
Lily and Derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.

Derick:
I'm tired Lily...Do you want anything to drink? I'll buy you one...I'll just go down the road.

Lily:
An Apple Juice, that's all. Thank you.

Derick:
Wait for me.

20 minutes later
A stranger approached Lily

Stranger:
Are you a friend of Derick?

Lily:
Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger:
A reckless drunk driver ran over Derick, and he is in critical condition in the hospital.

11:57 pm:
The doctor walked out of the emergency room; he handed Lily an apple juice and a letter.

Doctor:
We found this in Derick's pocket.

Lily reads the letter and it says:
Lily, These past few weeks, I realized you are a really cute girl, and I am really falling for you-your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.
I love you, Lily.

Lily crumpled up the paper and shouted:

"Derick! I don't want you to die-
I love you; remember that night when we saw a meteor and I mumbled something. I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and that we would never have to end this game. Please don't leave me Derick .. I love you! You can't do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12...

Derick's heart stopped pumping...

It was the 30th day.

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[20 Jun 2006|01:56pm]
[ mood | confused ]

omg.....

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juan.
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life.
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dreams.
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christinas weird singing
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seans quacking
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how does all this fit into my life??

how do i fit in2 my life?





life


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life [17 Jun 2006|09:44pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

hmm...
well my dance rectial was REALLY fun!!!

umm.... i loved it and u know what?
i didnt mess up!!!!! ppls hats fell off but not mine!!!
yay
yay
lol

well.....


life is like an hourglass ;
sooner or later everything hits the bottom
you just gotta be patient and wait
for someone to turn it around

thinking what 2 put in my pro!!!!
lol

well... ttyl



bi

<3

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lindsay [17 Jun 2006|03:44pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

soo....

i have this friend lindsay and her name is well...

lindsay

and she has this bf named steven and his name is well...

steven

and steven kills ppl and those ppl well are...

dead

and those dead ppl want 2 attack steven and his name is well...

steven

and steven likes 2 annoy ppl 2 and his name is well...

sean

and sean likes 2 call ppl gooses and hippos and well his victom is well called...

Amanda

and amanda is writing this enrty and this enrtys name is...

Lindsay

and linsay is well my friend

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Dance [17 Jun 2006|12:20pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

well i take dance...

i took:
ballet(2 yrs)
tap(2 yrs)
hiphop(1 yr)
jazz(1 yr)
Musical Thereter(thats what iam doing know)
and thats really it

well my recital is 2day and iam sooo nervous!!!

what happends if i fall on stage?
what happends if i act really happy but iam sopposed 2 act sad!
what happends if i sneeze and need a tissue while iam on stage
what happends if i do the wrong dance move and evry1 laughs
what happends if i do my makeup wrong
what happends 2 night!!!!

iam scared 2 death

i always has stage fright... mean while i try out 4 varity shows and plays and everything!!!

i force myself 2 go on STAGE but i cant go on stage and not smile or get scared!!!

in 5th grade in the varity shiow i remember i was soo scared and i tried 2 think that no1 was there.....

i try diff things 2 help me but i CANT

soo can some1 plezzz give me some advice!!!

iam like in the first 10 acts and our dance is the longest dance there is


!!!!!

oh yeah and our costume is soooo ugly! lol

its yellow and has a flower ties and then the pants are ALL flowers!!!

EW

lol

i need help 2 get ova my fear

plez




help :(

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Dance [17 Jun 2006|12:20pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

well i take dance...

i took:
ballet(2 yrs)
tap(2 yrs)
hiphop(1 yr)
jazz(1 yr)
Musical Thereter(thats what iam doing know)
and thats really it

well my recital is 2day and iam sooo nervous!!!

what happends if i fall on stage?
what happends if i act really happy but iam sopposed 2 act sad!
what happends if i sneeze and need a tissue while iam on stage
what happends if i do the wrong dance move and evry1 laughs
what happends if i do my makeup wrong
what happends 2 night!!!!

iam scared 2 death

i always has stage fright... mean while i try out 4 varity shows and plays and everything!!!

i force myself 2 go on STAGE but i cant go on stage and not smile or get scared!!!

in 5th grade in the varity shiow i remember i was soo scared and i tried 2 think that no1 was there.....

i try diff things 2 help me but i CANT

soo can some1 plezzz give me some advice!!!

iam like in the first 10 acts and our dance is the longest dance there is


!!!!!

oh yeah and our costume is soooo ugly! lol

its yellow and has a flower ties and then the pants are ALL flowers!!!

EW

lol

i need help 2 get ova my fear

plez




help :(

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LOL... [11 Jun 2006|05:25pm]
[ mood | confused ]

omg i have 2 tell u ppl a funny story..

well 2day @ like 11ish we were walking 2 the mall and it was about a little more then a mile away but we went there and shopped, duh! and then once we were done we...

planed 2 walk back home but we saw my friends moms car so the car was going as in like driving away but slowly so my friend and I ran after the car yelling "stop let us get in the car" and stuff like that but the car was getting 2 fast 4 us so we walked back instead...

Once we got 2 my friends house she asked her mom y she drived away in the car

and her mom said she neva did which means we were trying 2 get in a strangers car!!!

lol

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